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Ugh. I am sooo not feeling TTB right now. I don't feel like writing it even though it's basically all planned out in my head. I feel like writing every other thing except that fic. I'll be happy when it's done because right now I feel like it's a chain around my neck.
I wonder if this is what the writers of those stories that have those dreaded words 'ON HIATUS' or 'DISCONTINUED' attached to them go through. Maybe. But I will never tack those words onto a fic of mine. If it's started then it needs to be finished. And I will finish it. Nor will I do a half-assed job just to be done. I'll do my best work no matter what.
I suppose (hope desperately) that this feeling will pass. I bet locking myself in my room tonight in complete darkness will help. There, with everything a rich, velvety black and the only illumination to be had is from the MS Word I'm using, I think that the aversion to writing will go away. Writing in that kind of environment usually produces good work (ex: 'I'm with Sasuke/Naruto, Bonded, Secret Promise). I'm able to fall into my characters and the story writes itself. And if I play a little music softly...
Perfect. So that's settled.
You know...I wonder how original my stories are. I mean I don't read a lot of fanfiction so I wouldn't know. The fanfiction I do read isn't really Naruto. With hundreds of thousands of Naruto fics out there, surely the things I say in my stories have been said before? Several times? How original can one be in such a large fandom? Me thinks not very original. And there are ppl who dominate the NaruSasu/SasuNaru niche...ppl I will never be able to measure up to.
I guess it's not a competition. I write because I have something to say and I hope I say it well. That ppl read my work and seem to enjoy it is a wonderful and amazing thing. I've never shared any part of myself with anyone the way I do with writing and it's opened a part of me that's been closed my whole life.
Hopefully I'll be able to publish an original novel. I certainly feel closer to reaching that goal now than I did when I first began writing.
*Deep breath* This is why ppl blog. See? Now I feel better.
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Hello,
ReplyDeleteI would like to say that I read your comments about yourself and about your fiction. I would like to share my thoughts about your writings versus other people's writings. I've read several fandoms, many authors, and also many of each genre. I've read straight, drama, yaoi, parenting fics, bl fics, and almost any other kind you can read. There are some author's whose work is painful to read because their work is under developed, the grammar is horrible, the story makes no sense, or the plot is weak and unfufilling. There are other writers who grab your attention with their writing, pull your emotions, and lead your through the twists and turns of their stories. I personally feel that it's ok to overdramatize your writings at times, after all anime is often overdramatized. Sometimes the overdramatization is what makes the writing interesting. I don't think that you overdo the characters. The characters in your story mostly have a depth of personality. I don't think you overdo their reactions, not considering that they come from a highly dramatized anime. In reference to whether you as an author provide a plot that's interesting and unique, the answer would be yes and no. You can't expect to have a completly never been done plot, they've all been done before. lol. Even the books you read in the store have all been done many times in reference to basic plot. For instance, when I read eragon, I thought of harry potter and lord of the rings. However, the basic plot is not really the problem with most writings, since they can't be unique. Its the way the rest of the story follows that plot. The twist and turns that the author creates as they weild their craft. That is what makes a book or story unique. In that sense your stories are unique. The fact that all the younger shinobi were outcast in bonded and they came back stronger by teaching each other, the fact that Naruto and Sasuke have a bond that is so strong that one can literally breathe life into the other, and the fact that Naruto's children, while super children, still have aspects that remain as normal as any other child, are what make you a great writer. You give your characters life, personality, and even flaws. You write as if they truly are human. I'm glad to always read a new story by you and several other wonderful authors. Thank you.
Tataliny
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god.
ok, wait. I'm crying and I need a minute.
All right. Honestly? I've been depressed for about a week and you have totally - TOTALLY - blown my blues away. Totally.
I feel like I've been given a hit of epinephrine or whatever it is they use to jump start ppl back to life. Confidence renewed, motivation at peak levels, etc. Maybe that says I depend too much on what ppl think of my writing, but I can admit that. I've been doing it less than a year; right now the only perception I have of myself as an author is through my readers' eyes.
What you said made sense, about originality and the impossibility of it. I should have thought of that. Your reassurance comforted me. I'm glad my stories have a unique spin to them.
I suppose, if I were extroverted enough to think of others, that all authors go through ups and downs, faith or lack of it, in their work.
I want to say thank u. I don't know who u are or what ur pen name is, but I sincerely and humbly thank u. For my first comment on this blog, it was awesome. I know I'll re-read it whenever I need a pick-me-up.
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